◇ What can I do? ◇

Friday(3.12.2010)

Tonight, Im very tired..... very very tired~
even I feel tired right now, but I unable to sleep...
because I know I can't sleep....
whole of my brain is.... him~
Had a gathering with them juz now.....
I'm appreciate for whole the time, really.....
he sat beside me, but the feeling isn't same like before.....
really different~ 
After taking dinner, we went to carrefour and bought something that they wanted....
walked and walked....
As I looked at him, in my heart already told him "I very miss u for those the time...."
we didn't chat like before....
I started to feel sad and sorrow....


I looked at his comment.....
Actually, he texted her every night say "good night"
before, he did like that for me also...
but not now again....
My heart, like want to break....
Something that I have done tonight....
in facebook, I tried to msg her....
I hope she can give him a chance.....
I know that I'm sad when I sent this msg....
but I also know that, when he feels happy equal to I feel happy....
my friends asked me to give up him,give up and give up!!!
I don't know can I do it?
Actually I don wan also.... just because of we r a pair of good bosom friends....


I hate him! Actually I'm very hate him!
angry and angry... when I saw their picture and comments...
but, when he texted me, and said "sry..."
the bad emo will disappear instantly.....
WHY? Who can tell me why??
Actually I already forgot him for a long time....
but, received back his msg, the feelings came back at once....
for now, I don't hope anything....
just hope that I can help him as my best when he needs my help.....
I want him be happy....
before mom asked me " you make him happy, who make u happy?"
I dunno..... I really dunno.... just, tell myself, Jane, be happy....


What can I do?? Can I don wan to bother him??
will he feel unhappy if I dun bother him??
I really wan to know.... but.....
NO ONE can tell me the answer.....

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My SPM, just have last 3 papers....
those 6 papers quite good~ ^^
but, for history, I'm sure I'm going to die... =='
well, history isn't important to me....
BI, M.M, SC, A.K, EKO, BC, Moral....
I hope I can get A for those subjects... 
During the days of examination, I can't sleep well....
especially for last night....
the day before the SC paper....
headache let me cant concentrate in my study...
I tried to slp at 10pm, but I lied on the bed until 1am juz slept a while....
1.50am woke up....
really cant sleep.... ><
woke up and do my revision until 4.30am....
thn just slept until 6.30am.... went to school loh~ 


Well, hope me all the best bah~ ^^